words unspoken never heard
my criminal heart, aching
i thought you meant it when you said "ride or die". i saw the future, and stayed right here. am i retarded? are all girls retarded?
press play i dare you
i bailed you out of jail 3 times and you never gave me credit. even accused me of trying to steal from you days prior. if that was true why did i bail you out? why didnt i take the chance to rob you blind?
pretender, play stupid
the memory of our embrace when we were connected utterly as one haunts me. i cannot escape my feelings for you. i will die like this. i will die.
no hope kids
you can do everything right and still be pariah of someone elses need to be a victim, to shed light on you in an effort to hide their own deceitful actions.
my one ultimate existential fear
death. impermanence, loneliness, loss... how can life be so temporary? why must we either be taken away from those we love, or have our loved ones have to live on without us..?
tulpamancy as an art form
i spent most of my life until about the age of 21 being mostly isolated, completely alone, and quite lonely, too. i had to employ my imaginative abilities in order to construct a rather deep lore and intricate storyline that consisted of a wide range and cast of what i suppose could be refered to as "imaginary friends". sometimes i miss them, mostly i do...
